No Binging....

So, I'm writing this blog on my iPhone because we won't have Internet until Monday sometime. So I can't upload a photo. I haven't binged in 5 days! That's a huge accomplishment for me. I have been working out too, and been warning my calorie intake. Can't believe I'm actually sticking to my shit this time, I'm kind of proud. Well, I jut wanted to update while I could. I'll have a better post on Monday. Think skinny, I know I am.

SGD...

185.6 doesn't make me feel better for some reason. Have you ever just looked in the mirror and cried? I haven't stopped crying, you guys, I swear. I know I'm the only one to blame, I know it. And I understand it's only up to me to change that, I get it. I am just glad I have everyone's support, really. Oh, and 51 followers, right on! Thanks babes!! I'm starting the Skinny Girl Diet tomorrow. I'm really excited. But I'm taking it one day at a time. I realized today, I always get ahead of myself. Then when results don't come at a drop of a hat, I give up because I'm too fucking lazy to push on. But I'm not going to do that anymore. I'm taking life in general, one day at a time. So, I was wondering if anyone, maybe, wanted to be a texting buddy? Just someone to talk to in hard times, or someone who can talk about food, weight loss, weight gain, life with. Someone who won't judge and is just here for support. If so, let me know? Well, I'm off to watch tons of thinspo to get me in the mood for tomorrow. Wish me lucky, and love you all. Think Skinny!

A'las, I Have Returned,

And ready to fucking lose weight. I'm in beast mode, I'm damn serious. If I have to listen to people call me fat and big anymore, I'll kill myself. And I'm not fucking joking. I have let myself go, been too easy on myself. Let me tell myself, "it's okay to eat." Since when is it okay to eat? WHEN!?!? It isn't not when you're already a big girl. I don't want to be a big girl anymore. I DON'T!! And it's killing me inside. So now, instead of complaining, I'm doing something about it. I'm going to lose this weight. And I'm going to be thin, even if I kill myself trying.

edit: I'm going to put my weight on here every time I post...motivation. I'm weighing myself now and it's................ 190.2, fat ass.

Fat Lard...

The only way to cope is to feed the pain, and by feed the pain I mean gorge yourself until you fall asleep, alone and fat. What a fucked up day, I'm taking some shots and going to bed.

Rah Rah, Resputin!

If you do not have this game for the WII, then you suck. No really though, this game kicks your ass and it's fun in the mean time. I love it, I could play it all day, and it's a great exercise. Okay so update with me, I'm going to weigh myself right now. 183.6. I didn't start the fast because of all the family shit that was going on, and I knew I would break it. So instead of setting myself up for failure I decided to wait until tomorrow. Which is when I will start a juice fast. A guy at work came up to me and was like "hello beautiful". It kind of made my day, and it kind of made me sad. Why can't my husband say things to me like that? *Sigh* I'm not going to dwell on it though, right? My baby boy has 5 teeth now! And another one coming in! He is getting so big, he'll be 11 months in 3 days. Wow! I don't know where time goes! Well, I hope everyone is having a fabulous tuesday. But I'm off to do whatever it is I do. Think skinny babes!

Thinspo To Get Your Week Goin'

Hope Everyone's Week Starts Out Great! :)