Monday, January 23, 2012
I'm fat. Disgusting. Horrid. I feel sick to my stomach thinking about all the weight that I still need to lose. And instead of doing everything I can to lose every ounce I can, I shovel more and more food down my throat. Why do I do this? What the fuck does food hold so deep in me that I constantly need to over eat. It's not even like just eating healthy. It's way OVER eating. I don't stop when I'm full, I stop when I feel like I'm going to explode. RIDICULOUS. Fucking ridiculous. How can eating be such an addiction? How come I can't just put down the food and walk away. For Christ sakes, it's JUST FOOD. I'm taking Nyquil and going to bed now. Before I raid the pantry again. Night and think skinny.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
I weighed myself today. I was 163.7. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck! I gained 6ish pounds in likes two weeks. How embarrassing, seriously. I have to get back in the game. I can't throw everything I have worked for thus far out the window, all because I like to eat cake. Has anyone heard of the Russian Gymnast Diet? I think I might give it a try tomorrow. As well as start the 30 Day Shred by Jillian Michaels. Well, hopefully I will have better new for you guys tomorrow when I post. But as of now, I've got nothing. So, I'm going to go to bed now, and enjoy a little bit of sleep. Night and think skinny.