Saturday, April 30, 2011
So, I'm writing this blog on my iPhone because we won't have Internet until Monday sometime. So I can't upload a photo. I haven't binged in 5 days! That's a huge accomplishment for me. I have been working out too, and been warning my calorie intake. Can't believe I'm actually sticking to my shit this time, I'm kind of proud. Well, I jut wanted to update while I could. I'll have a better post on Monday. Think skinny, I know I am.
Monday, April 25, 2011
185.6 doesn't make me feel better for some reason. Have you ever just looked in the mirror and cried? I haven't stopped crying, you guys, I swear. I know I'm the only one to blame, I know it. And I understand it's only up to me to change that, I get it. I am just glad I have everyone's support, really. Oh, and 51 followers, right on! Thanks babes!! I'm starting the Skinny Girl Diet tomorrow. I'm really excited. But I'm taking it one day at a time. I realized today, I always get ahead of myself. Then when results don't come at a drop of a hat, I give up because I'm too fucking lazy to push on. But I'm not going to do that anymore. I'm taking life in general, one day at a time. So, I was wondering if anyone, maybe, wanted to be a texting buddy? Just someone to talk to in hard times, or someone who can talk about food, weight loss, weight gain, life with. Someone who won't judge and is just here for support. If so, let me know? Well, I'm off to watch tons of thinspo to get me in the mood for tomorrow. Wish me lucky, and love you all. Think Skinny!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
And ready to fucking lose weight. I'm in beast mode, I'm damn serious. If I have to listen to people call me fat and big anymore, I'll kill myself. And I'm not fucking joking. I have let myself go, been too easy on myself. Let me tell myself, "it's okay to eat." Since when is it okay to eat? WHEN!?!? It isn't not when you're already a big girl. I don't want to be a big girl anymore. I DON'T!! And it's killing me inside. So now, instead of complaining, I'm doing something about it. I'm going to lose this weight. And I'm going to be thin, even if I kill myself trying.
edit: I'm going to put my weight on here every time I post...motivation. I'm weighing myself now and it's................ 190.2, fat ass.