The Worst Part Is The Feeling...

I'm fat. Disgusting. Horrid. I feel sick to my stomach thinking about all the weight that I still need to lose. And instead of doing everything I can to lose every ounce I can, I shovel more and more food down my throat. Why do I do this? What the fuck does food hold so deep in me that I constantly need to over eat. It's not even like just eating healthy. It's way OVER eating. I don't stop when I'm full, I stop when I feel like I'm going to explode. RIDICULOUS. Fucking ridiculous. How can eating be such an addiction? How come I can't just put down the food and walk away. For Christ sakes, it's JUST FOOD. I'm taking Nyquil and going to bed now. Before I raid the pantry again. Night and think skinny.

FFFFUUUU....

I weighed myself today. I was 163.7. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck! I gained 6ish pounds in likes two weeks. How embarrassing, seriously. I have to get back in the game. I can't throw everything I have worked for thus far out the window, all because I like to eat cake. Has anyone heard of the Russian Gymnast Diet? I think I might give it a try tomorrow. As well as start the 30 Day Shred by Jillian Michaels. Well, hopefully I will have better new for you guys tomorrow when I post. But as of now, I've got nothing. So, I'm going to go to bed now, and enjoy a little bit of sleep. Night and think skinny. 

Long Time, No Post...

Well hello there. It's been a long while since I've posted anything. I'm not too sure what the reason is why I haven't posted, but I'm back. And I'm going to try my hardest to post more, and more often. I haven't been doing well on my diet lately (Lately is a fucking lie though, honestly. It's more like for the past 2ish months). But hey! It's a new year so I'm back on the ban-wagon. I just need to lay off all the shit I eat. And I fucking eat food from work like, every single time I work. Which is 5 days a week. That's a lot of crap going into my body. Plus at home I just eat shit, well, because I have been pretty depressed. Life at home isn't going well. I mean other that my son, nothing is going right. My relationship with my husband is shit, my body is shit, and other shit is just SHIT. I need this though. To be back here, to be back on a diet, to be back in control. I still am on Tumblr. But it's nothing like our good ol' Blogspot. So, I'm going to try to post daily/nightly again. With stats, weight tips, thinspo, the usual. Sorry for not being on here anymore though. I need to get back in the game, so I'm returning home. Here we go again gals, let's do it. Think skinny, get skinny.