Really???

Seriously??? Why don't you just load the gun for me! BLAH!!! >:( 

Oh dear god. I can't win for losing. On a positive note, my laptop still works!! Minor damages, but it still does it's job, right on! But on a negative note, I'm an obese cow, obviously. How is everyone. I'm actually okay today. And this little bit of info above, surprisingly, didn't trigger anything. Yay! Nothing interesting is going on right now, but tomorrow is April 1. And do you know what that means? YES! The start of a new fast! I'm super excited. Anyone want to join? If you do, instant message me (AIM). Sounds very 2002, but I have a little app on my phone for it, and I want to use it. And I ALWAYS have my phone, even in the potty. KatWigs29. I never realized until now, my name sounds like cat wigs. Well it's not lol, it's my name and my nickname for my last name. Just clarifying lol. So, all of my followers rock! Seriously, you all do. And thanks for all your support. I love you guys! My husband is a lying bastard. But you know what, fuck him. I'm only worrying about me and my son from now on. And my will to get thin is greater than his will to make my life a living hell, cuz baby it already is! And thanks unknown for nominating me, I don't know to much about awards on here right now, but thanks thanks thanks! But I'm off to go do what ever it is I do. Think skinny!

Punched My Laptop...

I'm posting from my iPhone currently. I in fact did, punch my laptop last night. Reasoning behind it is that my husband cannot be trusted what so ever and it's starting to really Piss me off, ALOT. It's to the point now that I'm getting fed up with everything and I'm about to walk out with the baby and say, "I told you so." I tried putting a picture on here but it didn't work. I'm sorry. Hopefully I will be back to a regular computer soon. Uhm, anyways, my husband told me last night he started talking to another girl about a week ago. And instead of punching him, I punched my laptop, stupid I know. *sigh* Oh, and more followers :) yaaaay! Alright ladies and gents, I'm off to snooze town, love you all, And as always think skinny.


Ps. You are all so inspiring, if it wasn't for all of yOur blogs and such, I think I would go crazy!

Time To Quit...

I'm listening to my body. It's about time I started doing that. I have quit my fast this morning. I'm ready to eat some again. I weighed myself today, 181.9. I hoped to lose more. But at least I lost some, right? I'm just very tired. It's hard to even get the energy to get out of bed. There isn't much I could or wanted to do, and I have to work and take care the baby. I feel I did well, and for the first time in a long time, I'm proud of myself. I don't like myself, but at least I accomplished something. I'm tired, time for a nap while the little one naps. Think skinny all. 

ps. 38 followers, woo hoo! :) thanks!

Ball Sacks...

So, I'm not losing right now? Awesome. Still chillin' at 183 for the past few days. What. The. Fuck. Oh well. I will just keep truckin' along. Ever feel like you just want to disappear? I thought so. I have just been so fucking down on life lately. What does it take to be happy? Being thin, that's what. Sorry to be so negative this post, but I'm just ready to give up and jump off a bridge. I dreamt today while sleeping on my couch that I   was sitting there staring at a turtle eating (not sure why a turtle). It kept getting bigger and bigger until it burst out of the glass tank I had it in, until it was filling the whole room, squishing me. Is this my body's way of telling me that, that is whats going to happen to me. I'm going to eat til I fill the room? I will be DAMNED before I let that happen. Are you with me!? Fuck fat! Let's get skinny. 

Makin' This Quick...

I restarted my fast. I know what you're thinking but I actually didn't binge or anything, but since the hospital thing it's been holy hell trying to restrict. On an up note,  I started at 188.4 on Tuesday (PAST MY FIRST GOAL!!!) and now day 3 of my fast I'm 183.0. Do not get me wrong, I'm hungry. I hate being hungry, but it's also a lovely feeling. Also, thanks to everyone following me! 34 people! Aaaaawesome! Alright guys and gals, I'll be updating tomorrow, I promise. Think skinny.

Le Sigh...

Sorry I didn't post yesterday, or put up a picture of myself. I was admitted to the hospital Wednesday around 2:30am. Courtesy of my husband and my mother, who think I have a problem. They did a full body inspection and physical. Do you know what it's like to be outed? In front of doctors and nurses who just don't understand? They found the cuts on my thighs...I'm ashamed. Embarrassed. Betrayed. I don't know. Hopefully, I'll post soon. But as of now, I'm on close watch. Sorry to let you all down again. I hadn't cut in like 4 months. But my husband has fucked up again. I don't know my head isn't straight right now. Love you all. Think skinny. 

40 Days...

As everyone knows tomorrow is the start of  Lent. And it's time whether people are Catholic or not to give up something for 40 days. This is my new beginning.  Under a doctors supervision, and with my whole heart and body, I'm indulging in a 40 day fast. I know, before anyone frrrreeeaaaakkks out. This is under a DOCTORS supervision. I'm extremely nervous, but I know this is possible. I need all the support I can get and I hope all of you will be here for me in my hard times and troubled times, much like you already are. I'm also excited, to be doing this for more than just weight loss (even though, yes, that is one of the main reasons).       So, I'm sure some of you have some not so positive things to say, but please, just support is all I need now. Oh also, I'll be taking pictures weekly of my body (not my face) and posting them. Bleh, so nervous for that,but you know what, I need it. Thanks to all of you for following me, I'm really happy and grateful for that. Alright, well I'm off to bed. I want to get plenty of rest to start out tomorrow. Night everyone and think skinny.

Learn To Live Half Alive...

Hey everyone. Wow, I have 25 followers now! Thanks! Not much has changed weight wise. Gotta give time to get back to where I was. I'm thinking of a 3 day fast Monday? Anyone looking to join me? My son has been really sick for the past few days, poor baby. I hope he feels better soon. But that's where all my time and heart is right now. So, I'm trying to post as much as I can, or when I can. Hope everyone is doing well, but I gotta go catch up and read all your blogs I have missed. Okay, love you all. Think skinny.

Oh Hai...

So I, this is the part I hate. I fucked up. I'm sorry, I feel like a disappointment, to me, to you, to everyone. Bleh. I have eaten like shit. Like a cow. I'm ready to start over though. This time. I feel like I always say that. But really, I want to start over. Will you give me a second chance? Please? Forgive me for the fucking cow I am, and help me to be skinny. I need you all more now than ever...