Yesterday, I didn't eat much. I was actually kind of proud. I was all "Like, Omigod, I ate well today." Then my fucking mom came over. And brought me food, because I was sick. What did I do? Binged. Why not? You can always start tomorrow, right?BUT I WANT TO START TODAY!I want to be thin now. Where the fuck did my self control go? In my stomach and thighs. With the food I shove down my throat. I wont even talk about what I ate today. I'm a fat pig. Fucking slop. I disgust myself.
Oh, sweetie, the beginning is always the hardest part. Hang in there; knowing who you want to become is the most important at this point. You can do it, I'm not saying it will be easy, but if you stay determined, you can do anything... anything, alright? And right now, if you're sick and want to get better, you need to get some nutrients into your body, no matter how guilty the food your mom brings you makes you feel.
ReplyDeleteHope you have a wonderful day!
Love,
Lu.