Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Today was a very emotional day for me. So of course I decided to binge. One day I'll keep my huge ass mouth shut. My husband and I fought again today. Oh my god, it drained me. I wish I could just leave. But I know I never will. If he could just keep his eyes away from every other woman, I would be happy. But who blames him? I'm horribly fat. I wouldn't want to look at me either. I used to think about suicide, but now that I have my son, I would never contemplate it again. He is the reason I live through each day. My depression is getting worse. I can feel it in my chest now. And I have anxiety attacks every so often. Today, just sucks. Sorry I'm being so negative. I'm just glad I can get it out of my mind, to kind of ease the pain. Because sometimes the pain is so unbarable, I have to do something about it or I'll burst. I hope all is well with you girls. I hope you're all happy. I'm going to go to sleep. Night girls, think skinny.